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[04 Mar 2007|01:14pm] |
IM NO LONGER USING THIS JOURNAL
im moving on from certain things
& this is only reminding me of pain
add my new journal if you care
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) jennielove
jennielove
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jennielove
& you can all pretend you never gave up
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[16 Dec 2006|04:05pm] |
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( again )
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[14 Dec 2006|10:15am] |
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( mm )
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[27 Nov 2006|12:46am] |
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( UGH! )
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[12 Nov 2006|01:57pm] |
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( HA )
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| [[ hayley rules ]] |
[25 Sep 2006|06:25pm] |
"To me, a relationship is about trust and understanding. It's about not knowing what to say at the wrong time, it's about knowing what to say at the right time. It's about holding hands and walking through a crowded street. And arms wrapped around each other when there is no one for miles. It's about telling him/her you care without saying a word. Its about taking care of him/her when they are sick. It's about fighting about stupid things and making up half an hour later. It's about longing for the other when they aren't around. It's about calling her honey, or sweetie or darling or babe.. and she smiles. It's about laughing at the dullest things, and about calling each other out when they are wrong. It's about laying around on the living room floor looking up at the ceiling and talking about anything and everything. It's shy, it's happy, it's depressing, it's cute, it's romantic, it's loyal, it's trusting, it's patient... and kind. It's staying up late talking, and getting those midnight snacks. Making love... again and again... and again. perhaps. it's crying on his/her shoulder. It's exciting, it's a breath of fresh air in a foggy city. It's hectic, and crazy. it's about shaving your head because she lost her hair from cancer treatments. It's about support. it's writing each other sappy poems, and about giving advice when they ask. It's about falling alseep on his stomach, while he plays with her hair. It's about sitting on a bench, heads resting against each others. It's about being corny and sappy. It's telling her you'll be by her side no matter what. And sticking to it. It's that sudden heart flutter when you see him/her. It's about that shaky feeling you get in your hands and legs. It's the little things. It's about being spontanious and And it's also calm and quiet. it's about being able to sit in the quiet and not say a word.. and know that it's not awkward or wierd. And sometimes it's about being wierd. It's about creativity, and imagintaion. it's about the dorky things. and that nerdyness. It's about giving each other space when they need it... it's about those small kisses you plant on the shoulder or cheek. And it's even more about the smile. You can tell alot about a person by their smile. and you can tell even more about that person when you look into their eyes. eyes are the gateway to the soul. it's not giving up. It's about that chance you take. Because you just have to."
this is so VERY familiar :]
fact:
miles aldridge is amazing
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[25 Sep 2006|01:43am] |
should i:
1- dye my hair black
2- bleach my hair white/purplywhite
3- dye my hair a chestnut color
4- dye my hair a plum color
5- leave my hair the way it issss
?
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| [[ this is no umbrella to take into the wind ]] |
[27 Jul 2006|01:30am] |
the fact that i took all my posters off my walls & only posted one in each corner of my cieling gives off this feeling of emptiness. not emptiness in a bad way, though. the kind of emptiness that you feel when youre packing all your shit to get out & move away. or when you just moved in somewhere & havent gotten around to putting everything up. i enjoy this feeling because i secretly dont want to be here anymore. i do, but i dont.
i love the security i have here. the company of my parents. my brother being a 10 minute drive away. so many of the close friends i grew up with just within reach. being able to spend so much of my time every day with my 7 1/2 month old daughter. but ive come to the realization that southern california is overrated.
people like san diego because of the weather. too bad global warming is sending that all to shit. people like san diego because of the beach. too bad i hate the beach & the sun & pretty much everything that goes with it. especially a majority of the people.
i want to get out. i want to travel. i want to go to places where there are seasons. i lived in a place like that for 7 years. unfortunately it was the first 7 years of my life. not to mention it was minnesota so the seasons were probably the most extreme that youll experience in the entire united states. besides alaska.
my entire life i have wanted to road trip. ive wanted to tour with a band. be in a band. some of my fondest memories are stopping at gas stations in the middle of nowhere on a long trip somewhere at 3 in the morning. driving by pure white windmills or fields of trees all in rows so that when you stare steadily in one spot you can see down every row for just a split second.
someday i will have the money to do some real traveling. all over the united states as well as overseas. the world is too big to just be satisfied with one spot for the rest of your life.
its weird to see myself say something like that. i always think of things in metaphors & analogies. the world is too big to just be satisfied with one spot for the rest of your life. but at the same time, even though there are so many people on the planet, i think spending the rest of my life with just one would be ideal. one that pleases me. maybe its because ive experienced quite a few relationships in my time already. not just romantic, but also otherwise.
i love meeting new people. i like to experience as many people as i possibly can. ive met a lot of people i would not waste my time with in the future, but have met many more that have been worthy to stick around for. maybe.. maybe thats what my analogy should be. i want to be settled down with someone, eventually, soon, when the perfect time comes, but i still want to experience as many other people as possible in every other way that i can. i want to settle down somewhere, live in a beautiful house, in a beautiful town, but i want to experience as many other houses & towns as i can.
theres too much & too many people in this world not to feel the desire to experience more. more more more. at least for me.
fact:
im counting down the days until the very moment i will lay my eyes, my fingers, & my lips on the spark that has yet to fade. my firefly glows on.
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